BOOK VIII.

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CLEVELAND.
“EVELYN is free—she is in Paris—I have seen her—I s her daily. :
“ How true it is that we cannot make a philosophy of difference! The affections are stronger than all our reasoning We must take them into our alliance, or they will destroy
our theories of self-government. Such fools of fate are passing from system to system—from scheme to scheme—
‘seeking to shut out passion and sorrow—forgetting that they are _ born within us—and return to the soul as the seasons to the earth! Yet,—years, many years ago—when I first looked gravely into my own nature and being here—when I first’ awakened to the dignity and solemn responsibilities of human life —T had resolved to tame and curb myself into a thing of rule and measure. Bearing within me the wound scarred over but never eS healed—the consciousness of wrong to the heart that had leaned _ upon me—haunted by the memory of my lost Alice—I shuddered a at new affections bequeathing new griefs. Wrapped in a haughty © egotism, I wished not to extend my empire over a wider circuit _ than my own intellect and passions. I turned from the trader- _ covetousness of bliss, that would freight the wealth of life upon barks exposed to every wind upon the seas of Fate—I was contented with the hope to -pass life alone, honoured, though unloved. Slowly and reluctantly I yielded to the fascinations of Florence Lascelles. The hour that sealed the compact between _us was one of regret and alarm. In vain I sought to deceive _myself—I felt that I did not love. And then I imagined that Love was no longer in my nature—that I had exhausted its treasures before my time, and left my heart a bankrupt. Not till the last—not till that glorious soul broke out in all its bright- — ness, the nearer it approached the source to which it has returned —did I feel of what tenderness she was worthy and I was capable. She died, and the world was darkened! Energy— - ambition—my former aims and objects—were all sacrificed at _hertomb. But amidst ruins and through the darkness, my soul “yet supported me; I could no longer hope, but I could endure. I was resolved that I would not be subdued, and that the world ‘should not hear me groan. Amidst strange and far-distant -Scenes—amidst hordes to whom my very language was unknown -—in wastes and forests, which the step of civilised man, with his sorrows and his dreams, had never trodden—I wrestled with my oul, as the patriarch of old wrestled with the angel—and the ngel was at last the victor! You do not mistake me—you _ know that it was not the death of Florence alone that worked -in me that awful revolution, but with that death the last glory fled from the face of things, that had seemed to me beautiful of
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old. Hers was a love that accompanied and dignified the schemes and aspirations of manhood—a love that was an incar-_ nation of ambition itself; and all the evils and disappointments
that belong to ambition seemed to crowd around my heart like yultures to a feast allured and invited by the dead. But this at length was over; the barbarous state restored me to the civilised. I returned to my equals, prepared no more to be an actor in the strife, but a calm spectator of the turbulent arena. I once more laid my head beneath the roof of my fathers; and, if without any clear and definite object, I at least hoped to find amidst ‘my old hereditary trees’ the charm of contemplation and repose. And scarce—in the first hours of my arrival—had I indulged that dream, when a fair face, a sweet voice, that had once before left deep and unobliterated impressions on my heart, scattered all my philosophy to the winds. I saw Evelyn! and if ever there was love at first sight, it was that which I felt for her: I lived in her presence, and forgot the Future! Or, rather, I was with the Past—in the bowers of my spring-tide of life and hope! It was an after-birth of youth—my love for that young heart!
“It is, indeed, only in maturity that we know how lovely were our earliest years! What depth of wisdom in the old Greek ;
myth, that allotted Hebe as the prize to the god who had been the arch-labourer of life! and whom the satiety of all that results from experience had made enamoured of all that belongs to the Hopeful and the New.
“ This enchanting child—this delightful Evelyn—this ray of undreamt of sunshine—smiled away all my palaces of ice. I loved, Cleveland—I loved more ardently, more passionately, more wildly than ever I did of old! But suddenly I learned that she was affianced to another, and felt that it was not for me to question, to seek the annulment of the bond. I had been unworthy to love Evelyn, if I had not loved honour more! 1
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fled from her presence, honestly and resolutely; I sought to —
conquer a forbidden passion ; I believed that I had not won affection in return; I believed, from certain expressions that I overheard Evelyn utter to another, that her heart as well as her
hand was given to Vargrave. I came hither; you know how
sternly and resolutely I strove to eradicate a weakness that _ seemed without even the justification of hope! If I suffered, I. betrayed it not. Suddenly Evelyn appeared again before me! _
_ —and suddenly I learned that she was free! Oh, the rapture of that moment! Could you have seen her bright face, her en- chanting smile, when we met again! Her ingenuous innocence did not conceal her gladness at seeing me! What hopes broke upon me! Despite the difference of our years, I think she loves _me! that in that love I am about at last to learn what blessings there are in life. | “ Evelyn has the simplicity, the tenderness, of Alice, with the — refinement and culture of Florence herself; not the genius—-not the daring spirit—not the almost fearful brilliancy of that ill- fated being—but with a taste as true to the Beautiful, with a soul as sensitive to the Sublime! In Evelyn’s presence I feel a sense of peace, of security, of home! Happy ! thrice happy! he who will take her to his breast! Of late she has assumed a new charm in my eyes—a certain pensiveness and abstraction have succeeded to her wonted gaiety. Ah! Love is pensive; is it not, Cleveland? How often I ask myself that question! And yet, amidst all my hopes, there are hours when I tremble and _ despond! How can that innocent and joyous spirit sympathise with all that mine has endured and known? How, even though her imagination be dazzled by some prestige around my name, how can I believe that I have awakened her heart to that deep and real love of which it is capable, and which youth excites in __ youth? When we meet at her home, or amidst the quiet yet brilliant society which is gathered round Madame de Ventadour or the Montaignes, with whom she is an especial favourite—when z we converse—when I sit by her, and her soft eyes meet mine— _ I feel not the disparity of years; my heart speaks to her, and that is youthful still! But in the more gay and crowded haunts 7 to which her presence allures me, when I see that fairy form surrounded by those who have not outlived the pleasures that so naturally dazzle and captivate her—then, indeed, I feel that my tastes, my habits, my pursuits, belong to another season of life, and ask myself anxiously, if my nature and my years are those. that can make Aer happy? Then, indeed, I recognise the wide
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has wearied, and one for whom the world is new. If she should —
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terest anguish would be that of remorse! I know how deeply —
I love, by knowing how immeasurably dearer her happiness is —
than my own! I will wait, then, yet a while—I will examine—I _
will watch well that I do not deceive myself. As yet, I think that —
I have no rivals whom I need fear: surrounded as she is by the | youngest and the gayest, she still turns with evident pleasure to — me, whom she calls her friend. She will forego the amusements —
she most loves for society in which we can converse more at — ease. You remember, for instance, young Legard ?—he is here; 3 and, before I met Evelyn, was much at Lady Doltimore’s house. — I cannot be blind to his superior advantages of youth and person; and there is something striking and prepossessing in — the gentle yet manly frankness of his manner ;—and yet no fear — of his rivalship ever haunts me. True, that of late he has been : little in Evelyn’s society ; nor do I think, in the frivolity of his —
pursuits, he can have educated his mind to appreciate Evelyn,
or be possessed of those qualities which would render him — worthy of her. But there is something good in the young man, — despite his foibles—something that wins upon me; and you will | smile to learn, that he has even surprised from se—usually so — reserved on such matters—the confession of my attachment and — hopes! Evelyn often talks to me of her mother, and describes — her in colours so glowing, that I feel the greatest interest in one who has helped to form so beautiful and pure a mind, Can — you learn who Lady Vargrave was ?—there is evidently some — mystery thrown over her birth and connections ; and, from what
I can hear, this arises from their lowliness. You know that,
though I have been accused of family pride, it is a pride of a peculiar sort. I am proud, not of the length of a mouldering | pedigree, but of some historical quarterings in my escutcheon—
of some blood of scholars and of heroes that rolls in my veins; it is the same kind of pride that an Englishman may feel in
belonging to a country that has produced Shakspeare and Bacon. I have never, I hope, felt the vulgar pride that disdains
want of birth in others; and I care not three straws whether
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lineage ; therefore, however humble Lady Vargrave’s parentage, _
do not scruple to inform me, should you learn any intelligence that bears upon it.
“T had a conversation last night with Evelyn that delighted — me. By some accident we spoke of Lord Vargrave; and she told me, with an enchanting candour, of the position in which she stood with him, and the conscientious and noble scruples |
she felt as to the enjoyment of a fortune, which her benefactor
and stepfather had evidently intended to be shared with his
nearest relative. In these scruples I cordially concurred; and
if I marry Evelyn, my first care will be to carry them into effect _ —by securing to Vargrave, as far as the law may permit, the —
- larger part of the income—I should like to say all—at least till -Evelyn’s children would have the right to claim it: a right not to be enforced during her own, and, therefore, probably not during Vargrave’s life. I own that this would be no sacrifice, - for Iam proud enough to recoil from the thought of being in-
- debted for fortune to the woman I love. It was that kind of
pride which gave coldness and constraint to my regard for Florence; and for the rest, my own property (much increased by the simplicity of my habits of life for the last few years) will suffice for all Evelyn or myself could require. Ah, madman that I am !—I calculate already on marriage, even while I have so much cause for anxiety as to love. But my heart beats— my heart has grown a dial that keeps the account of time; by its movements I calculate the moments—in an hour I shall see her!
“ Oh !—never!—never ! in my wildest and earliest visions, could I have fancied that I should love as I love now! Adieu, my oldest and kindest friend! If I am happy at last, it will be something to feel that at last I shall have satisfied your expec- tations of my youth.
“ Affectionately yours, “FE, MALTRAVERS.
“ Rue de -——, Paris,
January —, 13—,”